today

It is sunny and I am drifting around like a stick in a river with no clear intention of what I am doing or where I am going. Drifting, drifting, drifting. The day is beautiful the flowers and greenery bring life to this dullish town. I need to break free from this middle aged mentality and jump and dance and sing again. My enthusiasm seems drained today. Each word is dragged out of me like a tired relic from the depths of a deepening sea. Why is everything such a huge effort. I feel like a weight is pulling me down, pulling me down. Let me sing a new song and cheer myself everything seems old and worn and boring a hole of lack of interest. I must shake off this feeling of indifference and reclaim happiness and fun today has become a nothing day I must shake until I see the special, the great, the wonderful. Food, the smell of bacon does it every time. Marvellous.